Tamara Maat – March 19, 2019
Around this same time last year, I was gifted the Magdalen Manuscript by a dear client who came to Egypt to join me on a spiritual journey. It was somehow weird, unexpected and to an extent even unrelatable at the time. During that period, I was still on the growth journey with the third man I had identified as my twin flame (Read My Take On Twin Flames). For the years prior, I would hear the name of Mary Magdalene mentioned in front of me or in readings I would do, yet I never had connected to her or even know of her history (maybe I did know, but since the learning was not soul-based, it would not stick. This has been the way my spiritual learning would take place with all the connections I ever had established with archetypes and ascended masters. It all has to be soul-based.
Not being big on book reading, and not feeling the call to pick the book up and read it, I left it there for months, only coming back to it every now and then, looking at the cover and wonder why it was gifted to me. It wasn’t until 7/7 that I found myself taking the book to join me on the wonderful group gateway ceremony I held that day. To my amazement, I was contacted the exact following day by a person who had disappeared from my life a year before. That same week, I finally had the urge to start reading, and I am incredibly glad I did.
As I turned the pages of the manuscript, the channeled part where Mary Magdalene told her story, I was amazed at how the pieces of my own spiritual story finally came together. Ever since my initiation in early 2015, I would use the Cross, wordings from Christianity, along with being very connected to Jesus, along with my main connections to the shamanism of Ancient Egypt. Only by reading the book, the pieces of the puzzle came together. The way that the Magdalene was looked down upon reminded me of the harsh patterns I had been facing with relationship until the time. I realized where my healing powers come from, and why the kundalini was the easiest thing for me to work with. Tons of questions about myself, my life and my healing abilities were finally answered.
… In past lives, I was a Priestess from the Isis Temple myself.
The man who came back after finally reaching out for the book was back to be in my life romantically, yet I was still pulled by the energy of the twin flame I was hardly interacting with anymore. Not knowing what to do, that idea of thinking of two men simultaneously brought the old “whore” wound to the surface, yet I had not connected that to the book in any way.
I do not recall the details of when I first was called, seemingly out of nowhere, to burn that book, when I hadn’t even read the rest of it, the teaching part. I wondered why on earth I would be guided to burn a book with such teachings? I judged myself and let the idea go, although I had learned never to doubt a seemingly illogical idea that came to me out of the blue, since that is what pure intuition usually looks like. I dismissed the idea and asked the universe to send me a sign, in case that message was actually true. A few days later, I was in the presence of a lady who invited herself to channel a message for me, and in spite of my not appreciating her barging on my energy like that, she did tell me the reason behind why it was not working with my twin flame. What she said totally resonated with what I had read about “myself” in the book…
It turns out that the priestesses of the Isis Temple had been deemed whores and were programmed as such within the past two millennia. Our deep mystical abilities and teachings were summed up to one nasty word, and the problem was that we believed that to be true at the core of our beings. This is why for many lives, we would never land a decent relationship, only working as saviors for our men, while not receiving anything in return. It was our role to stay in the temple and be visited only sporadically, never enjoying the fruition of a fully-rounded relationship the way other women would. We were never chosen as “the one” although we knew we were more able than anybody else in offering sacred love that heals and transforms.
With identifying the source of that pain I suffered all my life, I decided to burn the book in order to hopefully release that karma. Literally four/five days after, the twin flame was out of my system, and I was finally able to be fully there emotionally with the man I had been afraid to surrender my feelings to. For the first time in my life, I can now call myself in a happy relationship; it would just never “land” before.
The reason I write this is that women need to be careful what labels they pride themselves with. The story of the Magdalen and Jesus is one of utmost sacrifice, and if you are up for it, it is perfectly appropriate then to refer to yourself as a Magdalen priestess and celebrate such giving. If, on the other hand, you want it to finally be “your turn,” you need to let the past go, release yourself from that consciousness of sacrifice, and embrace the potential that this life truly has to offer you.
There is no right and wrong answer in spirituality; just do not ask the universe for everything and its opposite. As I released that part from my personal history, I kept what truly mattered and worked for me, the mystical abilities, and stepped out of that temple into the real world to finally have a share in it.